Bouncing Back From Bed Rest

When I announced my pregnancy I also briefly talked about my modified bed rest. In case you missed it, I was diagnosed with a bleed on the gestational sac, which meant zero exercise. I was recently cleared to exercise, but I was incredibly nervous to jump right back into a studio class.

I was only cleared to do low impact exercises. Things like running, intense lifting, HIIT training were banned. I was also banned from spinning since I have only done it once and we are just being cautious. This means I can participate in classes like barre, yoga, pilates and any sort of stretching type of class and I can do as much walking as I would like.

I don’t feel like I am really limited, to be 100% honest, I probably wouldn’t have participated in running that much. I don’t typically run in the winter, and I wouldn’t want to risk a big fall, but also the bigger reason is fear. I know that running did not cause my miscarriage, but the fear is there, and I am not ashamed to admit it. I also really had been enjoying my studio classes pre-pregnancy, and I was excited to return.

So how did I return to working out? I knew I needed to take it easy and slowly get back into a routine. I become exhausted pretty easily, and I knew my muscles would be sore the first few weeks getting back into it. The two weeks I just did shorter yoga videos at home. I know that I don’t always push myself as much as I should when I am working out at home, so I was able to really keep the effort low and slowly increase it. I also only did 3 workouts a week, which was a huge decrease from the 6 weekly workouts I was doing pre-pregnancy.

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I finally went back into a studio class, and of course I had to start at Pure Barre. It helped that the class was a donation based class to support Jane who is running the Boston Marathon, for Team BIDMC again, this year! {Donate Here}

The studio emailed me the pregnancy modifications during the week, and I literally studied them. I wanted to make sure I knew what to do, because I knew that my first class would be overwhelming and I didn’t want to forget anything. I also told Cara, the teacher, that I was pregnant and that if I was doing something wrong to just let me know.

The class went well and I was shaking and burning right away, 3 months away was incredibly humbling, movements that were second nature to me when I was last in a class are now foreign to me. It is so crazy how much muscle memory I lost in a seemingly short time.

Of course the plan was to get into the studio 2-3 times a week and to do an at home workout 1-2 times a week, starting with this week. I was incredibly sore after my first class on Sunday, and had plans to go back on Wednesday, but of course #Blizzard2015 has had other plans for me. I can’t even exchange that workout for shoveling, per doctors orders, so I have been trying to get some shorter workouts in via video.

Have you ever been on bed rest? How did you bounce back?

If I Fall, I Die: The Fear of Raising Kids

This post was inspired by the novel If I Fall, If I Die by Michael Christie,about a boy who’s never been outside, thanks to his mother’s agoraphobia, but ventures outside in order to solve a mystery. Join From Left to Write on January 22nd as we discuss If I Fall, If I Die. As a member, I received a copy of the book for review purposes.

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I really loved this book, it was a frustrating read, just because you wanted the mom to get better for the sake of her son, but at the end of the book I understood her fears. She doesn’t want her son to go outside because of her own fears, and he admits to doing things to ease her anxiousness, but he does eventually go outside.

This is the quote that resonated with me:

“But the shadow that love can’t help but cast is fear: fear they won’t stay alive or around-fear they’ll be reckless, or doomed, or just walk away and not consider you ever again. With love, you’re scared it will disappear. With fear, you’re scared it never will”

When I was pregnant with B the scary pregnancy dreams were so intense I would wake up with tears in my eyes. Dreams that I wouldn’t be a good mom, that I would lose my child, that something bad would happen to him, you name it I dreamt it. After B was born I hoped the dreams would stop, but they didn’t. They were less intense and vivid, but they still happened. Eventually they slowly started going away, I’d have one occasionally, but it wasn’t taking such a toll on me.

In the past year or so they started coming back, not just dreams, but you know in those moments before you fall asleep, I’d have images of someone breaking into our house and harming him, carjacking us, etc… The worst things racing through my mind, and then I would be awake and completely unable to go back to sleep.

Now that I am pregnant again, the dreams are back in full force. I try to use meditation to calm myself down (the Headspace App is wonderful) and talk through what I would do if this situation was to actually happen.

I think what I wasn’t prepared for as a mom is the constant fear and worry. Are we doing the right thing? Did I pick the right pre-school? Is my kids getting bullied? Are we giving him the right foods? I can’t imagine that this is going to get easier as the kids get older, only harder. I don’t even want to think about driving or college!

I have to believe in myself as a parent. I have to raise my kid with love and respect, but also with rules and consequences.

How do you deal with the anxiety and fears of being a parent?

Incredible For Two Fitness Giveaway!

I am thrilled to partner with For Two Fitness for an amazing New Year giveaway. For Two Fitness is one of my favorite maternity brands and I am excited to wear it during this pregnancy! I know that finding clothes to wear and feel comfortable in during pregnancy can be tough, especially since your body can change so much! For Two Fitness is running a phenomenal giveaway for the New Year, that will not only help you during pregnancy, but will help you post-birth. Read the details below.

Happy New Year! We are so thankful to YOU — our community, customers, and friends. To express our thanks, we are hosting a huge giveaway this week in partnership with some amazing brands and our ambassadors. The Grand Prize is valued at $1000.  We have phenomenal prizes, including the newest offering from BOB – a Revolution FLEX  jogging stroller – plus prizes from ASICS, Ergo and Maison Drake baby boutique, and For Two Fitness – all facets of your healthy mom lifestyle are in this prize pack!

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The grand prize winner will win everything you see listed here.  Prizes have been furnished by our wonderful brand partners in connection with a sponsoring ambassador (Katie from Mom’s Little Running Buddy and Melody from Will Run For Margaritas). Here are more details about the amazing products that have been generously donated for you to win and enjoy:

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Grand Prize Giveaway items:

  • The New BOB Revolution FLEX single stroller
  • For Two Fitness maternity athletic outfit (top and bottom of winner’s choice)
  • Ergo 360 Baby Carrier furnished by Maison Drake baby boutique
  • Asics Running Shoes (1 pair of the winner’s choice)

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Wow!  We are thrilled to give away these amazing prizes.  This contest runs from Monday, January 12th through midnight on Friday, January 16th.  Visit the For Two Fitness site to enterBe sure to follow @ForTwoFitness and our co-hosts @run4margaritas and @momslrb on Instagram in order for your entries to be valid.

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Thanks for celebrating the New Year with us!  Good Luck!!

 

I know I will be entering, will you?

A Very Exciting Announcement!

Lets just get right to the most important thing about this blog post:

BABYB2I never really talked about our post-miscarriage TTC journey, partially because everyone’s journey is different and what (eventually) worked for us may or may not work for someone else. It is also something that I felt was too personal to put on blast for anyone to read. I have no problem talking to someone one-on-one if you are interested.

How Far Along?

I am 14 weeks, my due date is early July, in fact it is two days after B’s birthday. We don’t know the gender, yet. We will be finding out, mostly because I have zero patience!

How Did You Find Out?

Since we were working with an Reproductive Endocrinologist (RE) we had a scheduled blood test. About a week before the test I started noticing my exhaustion, I have always been a morning workout gal, and some days I would be more tired than others, but for a week I was constantly exhausted post-gym. I would climb back into bed and fall asleep immediately and Nick would have to wake me up once he was done in the bathroom. I had never had that kind of exhaustion before, except during my pregnancies.

I ended up taking a pregnancy test prior to my blood test, see zero patience, and the second line (aka a positive) never showed. In anger I tossed the test at the garbage. When I got home from the gym, I realized I didn’t actually get the test in the garbage, it landed next to it, so I picked it up and the second line had shown up, apparently I just didn’t wait long enough.

How Are You Feeling?

I am feeling much better than I was for the past 12-13 weeks. I just tend to have rough pregnancies, with B I was nauseous for the first 20 weeks, and I am glad this time around I did seem to start to feel better with the onset of the second trimester.

Now, I feel exhausted. Since B does not nap anymore it means mom does not get to nap, so I end up going to bed very very early every single night. I can also feel my sciatic pain creeping back in, I just hope it doesn’t fully set in for at least 5-6 weeks more.

How Is Your Fitness & Eating?

Food wise, I basically survived on potatoes, in any form, the first trimester. I had zero desire to eat any sweets or veggies. I tried to force one salad or veggie heavy meal at least once a day, but sometimes it just didn’t happen. I have also been obsessed with egg sandwiches, and I still am, unless I am in a rush I have one every morning for breakfast.

Now I am feeling at about 90%, and I am trying to make super healthy meals for us to eat. Since I am exhausted I try to make things that will last 2-3 nights so that I only end up really cooking 3 times a week, plus one night of pizza or some sort of takeout. I’ve been making a lot of veggie heavy soups or chili’s, perfect for cold weather and for laziness.

Fitness on the other hand has been at a standstill. There was a hemorrhage on the gestational sac, of course after a miscarriage hearing that freaked me out. Especially since I could spot or bleed during my pregnancy. It hasn’t happened, thankfully, but is still scary just to think about.

So this meant that I was on a modified bed rest. It meant absolutely no lifting (which a 3-year-old DOES NOT understand), no physical relations, and no exercise. Basically I did the bare minimum and felt like a crazy person. The bleed is now gone, thank goodness, and I can get back to a normal routine. I’ve been taking it easy slowly getting back into it with yoga at home, but I am looking forward to getting back into the studio(s) very soon!

How Did B React?

He is super excited. He helped us pack up some residual baby toys and some of his stuffed animals for the baby. He loves to talk to my belly and tells the baby how much he loves it. I can’t wait to see him as a big brother, I think he will be amazing, even if he did tell us “baby girl or baby nothing”.

Will You Be Blogging About Your Pregnancy?

I will probably post updates occasionally, and include how I’m feeling with my workout recaps. but I just can’t remember to do the photos and the weekly recaps.

So glad to finally share my marvelous news and link up with Katie again!

Any other questions I missed? 

I’m Back…

It has definitely been awhile since I wrote a blog post or even opened up WordPress. I didn’t have a ton to write about and I wanted to spend some time with my family, so I am glad for the break, but now I am back. The only thing I bummed to have missed was my FOURTH blog anniversary. I can’t believe I have been blogging for this long, and I am ready to get things going in 2015. Before I start sending out new content, I figured I’d catch everyone up on a few things that have been going on!

 

BUT, Before that I am applying to be DanceFIT Studio’s Spokesperson of the Year. If you feel like I would be a great fit, I would love a nomination. All the details can be found on my FB Page.

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First we had some awesome family photos taken by the amazing Caroline in early November, and I wanted to share a few with them all of you, especially now that our Christmas cards are out.

winn_141109-2477I got my hair and makeup done at The Luxe Bar in Peabody, and I am so happy I was able to do so.

The Luxe BarThis is just the hair styling side of the salon. Makeup is at the far end, they also have manis, pedis, bronzing and a brow bar! There is also a kids and bridal section!

EVERYONE raves about them, and there is a reason! Chelsey did both my hair and my makeup, which was nice because some other places typically have two different stylists for the services and the appointment had a great flow to it and I didn’t have to wait between getting my hair done and my makeup, so I ended up being done a little earlier than I was scheduled which is always a plus.

Chelsey made some great suggestions as well, when I get a blowout I always get my hair pin straight because it is hard for me to do on my own since my hair is extremely thick (and my patience is not high), she suggest some curl at the bottom to make it bounce which I think was great for the photos we took. The only downfall was that I can usually keep a blowout looking good for 4-5 days, and with this hair style it definitely fell out after about 2 days. She also made great suggestions for my eye makeup and used my own lip gloss instead of a lipstick so that I could reapply as needed!

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In addition to taking family photos, I am also going to be an ambassador for Zooma Cape Cod for the third year in a row! (2013 and 2014 recaps), you can use code: KELLY15 for 10% off the half marathon or 10K!

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And some of you might remember that I did some work with Feetures during the 2014 race, and they released the video, this took a lot of courage on my part, as I don’t like being on camera that much, but I am so proud of myself.

I also spent a majority of my “off time” with my family and just hanging out. It was nice to not be in the social media for a while and I am glad I took some time off. I do have a long overdue Stitch Fix recap for you and some other posts that I have been working on.

I hope you all had a great start to 2015! Update me on what’s new in your lives!