2 A.M. at The Cat’s Pajamas: Dealing with the Unexpected

This post was inspired by 2 A.M. At The Cat’s Pajamas by Marie-Helene Bertino, a novel about hope, love, and music in snow covered streets of Philadelphia. Join From Left to Write on August 28 we discuss 2 A.M. At The Cat’s Pajamas. As a member, I received a copy of the book for review purposes.

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 In the book Madeline’s life changed forever with the death of her mother and she had to change her everyday life. It’s no secret that I had a miscarriage, so it is probably no secret that Nick and I have been trying for almost year to get pregnant again. I wish I could end this post with a ta-da, I am pregnant, but I can’t.

I hate saying this, but I got pregnant easily the first two times. The first time I was on the pill, and it was a shock to say the least, but now I have a happy and healthy 3-year-old, and I would not change a single thing. When Nick and I discussed having a second baby, without a lot of effort I was pregnant again. Just like that, I wasn’t. It  was the worst thing I have ever been through.

Now with B starting pre-school it is really hitting me hard. I never expected to have this time to be by myself. Having a few hours a day where I could pretty much do anything is completely unexpected. Many people tell me that I will figure it out, because hopefully soon enough that will change. And I get it, I do, but this wasn’t the plan, and I hate that I couldn’t control this.

IMG_8698I mean, who wants to spend a minute away from this guy?

On top of all this, Nick and I have been seeing an RE (reproductive endocrinologist) to figure out exactly what is wrong with me, and it is never an easy process, is anything.., and one that I am not quite ready to put on this blog because I am still dealing with the process that we are going through and some of the diagnosis we were given.

I know in life things never go how you plan and you have to roll with the punches, so here I go, attempting to let life guide me and not the other way around…

 

 

Weekly Updates: 08/11/14 – 08/17/14 (Zooma Week 2)

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Monday, August 11th – Cross Training. Since my car was still out of commission I exchanged Monday and Tuesday’s schedule. I did 35 minutes up and down the hill on my street. It was hard, but it’ll be worth it.

Tuesday, August 12th – 35 minutes. I did this workout on Monday, so I went to Pure Barre first thing in the morning!

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Wednesday, August 13 – Cross Training. I took another Pure Barre class. 55 minutes of pure fun!

Thursday, August 14 – 35 minutes. B and I went for our early morning jaunt. It was more of a slow jog/walk then a run, but I am just focusing on getting the minutes & miles in, more than anything.

Friday, August 15 – 3.5 miles. B and I did 2 miles, I was feeling sick the night before so we got a late start and I wanted to make it home for nap time. He didn’t end up taking a nap, so we spent some time running around outside.

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Can you spot me? {Photo Credit: PBL Facebook}

In the evening I went to Pure Barre Lynnfield’s first intensive class, the theme was Slenderize Your Outer Thighs, instead of 55 minutes it was 75 minutes. I think every single one of us was incredibly scared. It was an intense class, I was dripping within 20 minutes of the start, but it wasn’t something that I couldn’t handle. Melissa, the instructor, really focused on making sure that our form was perfect, that our heels were high enough, our shoulders relaxed, etc… It was a great class and I can’t wait to take the next one.

Saturday,  August 16 – REST. I sort of did this. If you follow me on Instagram I am sure you saw the pictures I posted from the Keith Urban concert. We went with my sister-in-law and her husband to the show in CT. We had pit which is general admission so we got there as soon as we could and stood for a good 6 hours. My legs were pretty beat after the Pure Barre class on Friday so this wasn’t the best idea, but I don’t regret it one bit.

Sunday, August 17 – 55 minutes. This did not happen. When I woke up my legs were shot, plus I knew I’d have to drive back to Boston. I made the executive decision that rest was what was more important. I also soaked my lower legs in the freezing cold pool in hopes that it would speed up the recovery process.

Food: This week was a lot of quality veggies and lean proteins. The only exception being Thursday evening, I was feeling so gross and the only thing that sounded good was grilled cheese, but we didn’t have any bread in the house. I made a small bowl of pasta instead, it made feel a bit bloated, but it didn’t make me feel like throwing up so that’s a win. Saturday after the concert we were starving so we ended up at the local diner, we all ordered club sandwiches. I only ate half of mine and it definitely filled me up.

How is your training going? Have you ever taken a Pure Barre intensive?

Weekly Updates: 08/04/14 – 08/10/14 (Zooma Week 1)

I wrote this post before the tragic passing of Robin Williams. I know that some people feel like mourning celebrity deaths is ridiculous, and sometimes I feel that way too. When Paul Walker passed I read this article that explained so well why we feel more when certain celebrities pass away.

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I feel like I grew up with Robin’s works. Mork & Mindy was one of my favorite TV shows as a kid. Dead Poets is what made me want to teach. Good Morning, Vietnam made me want to learn more about history. Hook, Aladdin, Jumanji & Mrs.Doubtfire are engrained in my childhood, and Good Will Hunting is always my  favorite Boston movie, but my favorite movie about life and love. Here is a great article on the life lessons we learned from Robin Williams.

I hope people remember that Depression is a disease, one that this no cure, but that needs constant vigilance and work. If you are feeling like you have no one please call the suicide prevention line (1-800-273-8255) or tell someone. Even in times of darkness you are loved.
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So, Zooma training has officially kicked off. I am excited for the training and for the workouts!

Monday, August 4th –  Cross Training per the plan! I ended up using Monday as a rest day since I went to Pure Barre on Saturday and Sunday, and they were both tough workouts!

Tuesday, August 5th - 30 minutes running. I went to Pure Barre in the morning and when I got home I took B on a jog(ish) in town. His stroller is not a running stroller so it is heavy, and ended up walking more than running.

Wednesday, August 6th – Cross training. I took an evening class at Pure Barre with Jane, and we were rewarded with free wine at the end of the day! For my local friends, Pure Barre Lynnfield has $10 Tuesdays for the month of August for new clients, if you have been wanting to try it, this is your chance!

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Thursday, August 7th – 30 minutes running. My car started making wonky noises and we couldn’t get an appointment with the mechanic until Saturday, and he advised us not to drive unless absolutely necessary. So I did 30 minutes of running around outside our house with B.

Friday, August 8th – 3 miles. Same situation as above, and our street (and neighboring ones) don’t have sidewalks so I do not feel comfortable taking B’s large stroller out on the busy streets. We ran up and down our dead-end street for a while, I didn’t check for mileage because that seems silly, but we were out for over 2 hours, so hopefully that counts for something.

Saturday, August 9th – Rest. I knew Sunday would likely be a rest day, so Jane picked me up at home and drove me to Pure Barre. Thankful for awesome friends!

Sunday, August 10th – 45 minutes running. I was outside playing with B for a good chunk of the day, and also running around the house doing a ton of projects, it wasn’t the planned workout, but I think it’ll be okay.

Week 1 Lessons: It is not easy training with a toddler, that is something I don’t have to really explain. Where I run/jog/walk isn’t super populated during the early hours of the morning, at least not at the time that works for us. So until B starts pre-school I am going to have to fit in what I can, when I can. I also, have to keep my pace worries in check. With the stroller and B alone I am pushing about 70 pounds, plush whatever gear, snacks, toys, etc… I bring with us to keep him occupied until we get to the playground.

Food Updates:

This weekend was one of the first weekends this summer that resulted in spontaneous dinner plans. Cait and I had been trying to meet up for a while, and we both happened to be free on Friday night. She picked me up (seriously, I have great friends) and brought us to Legal C Bar at Market Street in Lynnfield.

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We took a couple of seats at the bar and had a great time, great food and conversation will do that for you. I also had a pretty healthy dinner. The combo plate hat scallops,scrimp and a crab cake full of crab not stuffing alongside a light salad.

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I still enjoyed the warm bread and some wine, but I still put this dinner in the win column.

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Do you run with a stroller? What was the best seafood dish you’ve made or had made for you?

Weekly Updates: 07/21/14 – 08/03/14

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In case you missed it, I posted my Zooma Cape Cod training plan last week. I start today, fingers crossed it already happened.

07/21 – 07/27

I was away during the weekends that bordered this week so I had to get all my classes in during the week. I ended up going to Pure Barre on Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday. I was going to go on Friday morning but I had to fast for blood work (ten tubes, yuck) so I decided it’d be best if I took a rest day. It was definitely a wise decision since I was wiped after that blood work.

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07/28 – 08/03

I made it to Pure Barre on Tuesday, Wednesday, Friday, Saturday and Sunday. I enjoy taking advantage of visits from my mother-in-law and mom so that I can take later morning classes. I also love when we are home for the weekends so that I can take a barre class with Jane. As of August 1, (Friday) I had taken 55 classes. My next goal is 100 classes!

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I hate going away because then I don’t have time to prep, but because of all the help we had this week I was able to prep a ton and eat really well. This weekend we were home so I was able to do the same. I am still seeing a nutritionist so that helps with keeping me accountable too. Although the stress has been high lately, I’ve been really trying to keep the stress eating reeled in.

How was your week in workouts? Are you training for something or have any big goals?

Five Things Friday: Zooma Training Plan & Pure Barre Goals

Five Things Friday1. Zooma Cape Cod Training Plan

I finally made a training plan for the Zooma Cape Cod 10K. I start on Monday, and I would be lying if I said I wasn’t worried about it. I am worried, terrified is actually the more appropriate word. I need this redemption race so badly, but I am scared of what the outcome could be.

In other exciting Zooma news, the race is sold out!! How exciting! Leave me a comment and let me know if you are running, and we can try to get together! If you are running, Marathon Sports is hosting a 10-mile training run for those participating in the half-marathon.  It is Saturday, September 18 at 8 am at the Mashpee Marathon Sports. Click on the link to RSVP if you plan on attending, and stock up on any fuel you might need for the race. Marathon Sports is my go-to store for any running questions or guidance so I am super excited that they are hosting this run.

Monday Tuesday Wednesday Thursday Friday Saturday Sunday
08/04 – 08/10 XTRAIN 30 minutes XTRAIN 30 minutes 3 miles Rest 45 minutes
08/11 – 08/17 XTRAIN 35 minutes XTRAIN 35 minutes 3.5 miles Rest 55 minutes
08/18 – 08/24 XTRAIN 40 minutes XTRAIN 40 minutes 4 miles Rest 65 minutes
08/25 – 08/31 XTRAIN 45 minutes XTRAIN 45 minutes 4.5 miles Rest 75 minutes
09/01 – 09/07 XTRAIN 50 minutes XTRAIN 50 minutes 5 miles Rest 80 minutes
09/08 – 09/14 XTRAIN 55 minutes XTRAIN 55 minutes 5.5 miles Rest 85 minutes
09/15 – 09/21 XTRAIN 60 minutes XTRAIN 60 minutes 6 miles Rest 90 minutes
09/22 – 09/26 XTRAIN 30 minutes XTRAIN 30 minutes Rest ZOOMA 10K

Cross-training is definitely going to be Pure Barre, some Yoga, and probably a little bit of DanceFIT thrown in!

2. Pure Barre 100 Club

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It’s no secret that I love Pure Barre. It has been my saving grace these last six months, and the community is wonderful. I just got an email from one of the wonderful women that work there and she told me that I am over halfway to the Pure Barre 100 club. 45 awesome classes until I become part of the club!

3. Wedding Fun

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He was so stinking good the entire wedding, I couldn’t believe it. I mean he is pretty laid back, but being in a wedding makes for a long fay for anyone. He even participated in some Greek dancing and pretty much refused to leave the dance floor!

4. Boston Fun

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We went into Boston with my aunt and cousins for the afternoon, then met up with Nick and my uncle for dinner. I haven’t ventured into the city by myself with B, but this trip definitely made me realize that we could probably do it!

5. Thankful

I know I say this a lot but I am very thankful for those who have been such integral parts of my life, especially during this recovery process and moments when the grief makes me sad and angry. I am blessed to have such a wonderful support group of family and friends.

What’s on your mind this gorgeous friday?