The truth about breastfeeding, well MY truth.

Warning: Lots of info about ladies parts, again. Stop here if you don’t want to read about that.

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I have always wanted to breastfeed my babies, I know it’s what best for them, and frankly it seems a little easier. Getting up in the middle of the night, waiting to warm a bottle with a crying little one, no thanks.

However, I knew that it might not be possible. My mom struggled with breastfeeding my sisters and I was just given formula. My sister breastfed for a little while but didn’t produce enough milk and moved to formula.

The first few days, while in the hospital, Baby B was able to latch well at first and seemed to be getting enough milk. Then we started struggling, he wasn’t latching or staying latched.

Unfortunately since B didn’t latch well there was some cracking and bleeding of my nipples. It was painful and made it hard for B, but we worked through it.

First night at home and B couldn’t eat, sleep or go to the bathroom. I knew right away their was something wrong with my baby. I called the pediatrician and we were seen immediately. B had jaundice and needed to be re-admitted to the hospital’s pediatric unit. I, of course, was still all hormonal and started sobbing in the pediatricians office.

After a day and night in the photo-therapy lights, B was cleared to go home. During our time in the hospital I met with a lactation consultant, and she took one look at the feeding area, and was shocked.

Because of our rough night, and constant trying to feed, my nipples were cracked and bleeding and in immense pain. She recommended a pump and supplementing with formula, if I wasn’t pumping enough (1-1.5 oz) every 3 hours. I was pumping 10-15 mL and supplementing, and B made a great turn around, we were discharged the next day.

At home we continued the pump and formula supplement cycle. Unfortunately I was never able to pump more than an ounce at a time, and he is currently eating 4 ounces at a time.

We’ve been home for over 7 weeks and my supply is actually decreasing, and B’s appetite is increasing. I am feeding him 1-2 ounces of breast milk a day and everything else is formula.

Some days I feel like a failure, I couldn’t supply my baby with enough food to live off of. I know there is nothing else I could do, but sometimes that doesn’t help.

I knew breastfeeding physically wouldn’t be easy, but I didn’t know how hard it would be mentally.

That being said I have found some great products to aide with pumping and bottle feeding, I will review them in another post.

Today’s Question: Did you struggle with breastfeeding? How did you handle those struggles?


Living just outside Boston, MA, I was well aware of Hurricane Irene that was headed up the East coast this past weekend. The husband and I brought in patio furniture, found all our flashlights and stocked up on baby formula. Then came the wait. Friday night, nothing. Saturday, we had some rain and wind, but nothing we haven’t dealt with before. Sunday, we were ready. Ready to lose power, ready to be without power for awhile, and ready for flooding of our garage.

But the storm came and went without much fanfare, it never seemed like it was raining that bad and the wind was greater than usual but nothing went down near us. I know other towns outside Boston lost power and had many trees down, but we seemed to escape pretty easily. Early in the evening I talked to my sister in Philly, who is without power. And my parents, who are in different parts of Vermont, who said it was rainy but nothing bad.

Hours later my phone was getting inundated with texts from my family. The rain was getting more intense and there was flooding, and it just kept getting worse and worse.

My words can do no justice. I will share with you some images and videos that were shared with me.

Before you go and say that this hurricane was overhyped and overrated, think about VT, and all the people who have lost their homes and belongings.

Woodstock, VT. Those white things floating are propane tanks.
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Wooden Covered Bridge in Quechee, VT, 8/28.
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Same bridge, 8/29.
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Plaza in West Lebanon, NH.
Check out the water line on the bricks.
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RT 4, just outside Rutland, VT. If you’re familiar with the area, just past Sugar and Spice.
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These are just the areas near my family and friends, many parts are worse. Please keep VT in your prayers. I hope all your families and friends are safe as well.